Halloween 2009

It's been a while since I have actually posted a blog; way too much has happend & have no regrets...

This past week was filled with so much frustration & anger... It sucks when you talk to someone about how this thing called "drama" ; hasn't been involved in my life.. when all of a sudden it came without a warning.
When you are frustrated with having no money & just waiting on the mail man to come any minute.. but for some reason it had kept me waiting for 4 days.. through out all of the anger that had been within me..And with someone by your side trying to make it better, is always a good thing.. but when the rest of your bestfriends are mad at you..

Trust is a big issue in life, because you never know what other people know or what they'll say...
But for some reason I don't care what people know or what they say , but other people do...


[I never expected to ever have to actually have a physical fight with one of my bestfriends..
For the stupidest reasons, which was unnecessary; with a taste of humiliation in my mouth ;
& the andrenaline rush rushing my blood from my fingers to my toes]

I've learned that you can never control the bad vibes that tend to crawl up your sleeves

I hate doctors;; blah

So... its sunday morning and i havent slept all night...


Your probably thinking that im on drugs or something hahah but uhmmmm ah NO!

I think i need to talk about friday;; aka tragic;;

I was awake early for some odd reason...
I take alex to school at 1;; and then go to melody's because she has an infected kidney aka not good at all.
Me and dillon took her to the emergency room in hollywood aka kaiser permanente? We had to put that bitch in a wheelchair cause she couldn't walk....
We waited in the waiting room for like ever;; i was so tired and all i ate was a fucken hotpocket the whole day
We finally got called in;; into a small ass liitttle stupid room;; you know those rooms they put you in at the hospital? haha yeah those.
SO it was me melody and dillon;; aka melody was passed the fuck out the whole time and i was starving to death and thinking of some crazy ass shit;; it was the worse shit of my life;

the doctor dood finally comes in and like hits melody in the back to see where it hurts and she started to cry and i felt so fucken bad...
:(

SO yeah pretty much we were there for about 6 hours,,, can you say bullshit?
BULLSHITTTT!@@$@^#%*#$(@&$

but whateverrrs... we finally got her vicodin. and finally left like about 6:30 ugh and i finally at something...
We just went back to melodys;; aka amy and alex bussed it over here and we got drunk as fuck...

lauren and sean had planned shit;; aka they wanted me to pick them up and take them to a fucken kickback in walnut?
But i was tired as hell ;; so they're all mad at me and shit but whatever;;;

We got drunk;; and we left and i took amy and alex home. blah
oh and amy drank a beer with a cig in it hahahahah


So lasstnight was pretty much bullshit;; but it was funnnn.


Yesterday;; aka Saturday
Dylan comes over;; aka scared the shit out of me haha cause i come out of the shower and walk into my room and i was naked;; aka i yelled haha!

Hah so i get ready check the space right qquuueezzzyyy and talk to the hottie aka you already know...

My dad comes in the room ;; "what are you slimballs thinking of doing today?" And of course i think of a stupid asss lie;; even though it doesnt matter its just i have a habit of lieing to my parents about everything even though whatever i do isnt even bad or something i dont know i just think of something;; aka i just talk out of my ass..
So my dad is 63 aka yeah i know he could be my grandpa;; get over it.
He starts yelling at dylan and telling him not to flood the house again;; [[he flooded the house a couple months ago;; aka he clogged the toilet LMAO;;
Oh and dylan is my bestest friend! aka he moved to palmdale last year ;; and yeah;; it sucked;; but whateves;;

So we decide to go eat at carl's jr;; aka and of course alex's tranny ass would be there with priscilla... haha.
We at like fatasses of course;; aka a spicy chicken and criscut fries aka bomb as fuck! lmao

Oh and i used my fake id to get ciggarettes for the first time and it worked!!! H4Y GIRL WHAT?

So we went to melodys;; and got dranks and went to the monterey park party;; and two fags in plaid shirts were talking shit i was about to beat theyre asses ughhh!
And then Carlos Jesse and his little raver kids started talking shit too and i was gonna beat some ass;; but of course the party got raided at 11:22. hahaahah.

So then we went to dillons dealers house;; aka weird ass fool;; we did some lines of coconut express;; aka coke;; it was not cute...
Then we went to fullerton aka to go to pringys friends house aka they were all cool;; but everyone else was tired and being dramatic i didnt like it and i was on xenox, coke, drunk....and so on. Oh god;;

Oh & lauren and sean called me;; asking me to pick them up from uniion station cus they were stranded becus they missed the last train;; aka thats my fault;; it's theres. but whatever...
Why would i pick them up if sean was talking shit to me earlier? FUCK THAT SHIT

We got so drunk and we finally left at like 8 in the morning;; and now im at melodys and i cant sleep ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

bad ass bitch

So.. tonight;; was the third night in a row that i be clubbin' it! hay girl what?

This week is going by fast;; and i start school next wednesday;; ew kill me?;; i'm kinda excited but not really cause i hate school so much;; and everyone swears like i give a fuck about how much they talk shit about me! ha..


Saturday we went to David Q's party all the way in fucking San Bernardino aka can you say mission? i think soo..
I got so drunk ;; and i took a half of a pill;; i took marble, lauren, alex, and bianca.
I kissed some boy named Phillip i thought he was so cute;; but i think he's taygores ex or something but whateves.
And lauren got me so pissed after because she thought i was gonna crash;; but i was fine;; so she almost hit me and i told her if she hits me then i'm definitely gonna crash!


Tuesday...

I went to dance with alex, lauren, jessica [[quiza]], and david q. It was coo;; saw and talked shit about all kinds of nasty dance kids haha. I saw Anthony Styles;; aka hot ass;; aka you already know.

Wednesday...

I picked alex, david q, jessica [[quiza]], and andrena up;; and went to club own in azusa;; it was pretty cool;; we got in for free cause we got there before 10:30 hay girl what? haha.

Thursday...

I wake up;; my mom wasn't home;; so i couldn't take alex to school at 1;; and my fucken mom gets home at like 12:50 but alex just didn't end up going and i felt bad..
So.. i took Carolina to get her car in Montclair;; aka sick mission but it was cool :)
And ate at her uncle's little peruvian restaurant;; it was my first time eating that kind of food and it was really good kinda lmao.

I get home and take a shower;; get ready;; then go to Jessica's house in glendora;; smoked some kush;; and ate mcdonalds;;aka gross...Me and alex left after and went to wal mart cause alex needed school supplies and alex got mad because they didnt have most of the supplies that he needed haha;; lowkey it was kinda funny;; especially cause everyone and their moms were stareing at us cause we had a shopping cart lmao.
Then i drop alex off at home;; and go pick lauren up;; and go pick Sean up;; get alcohol;; then it was time for the heist!

AKA can you say v.i.p.? haha thanks to sean we were v.i.p. and we didn't have to wait in the long ass line and got in for free. aka hay girl what? So, i saw Anthony Styles and his friend david aka double d.. hah they're cool. Anthony got too drunk and so they left :(.. i was kinda sad;; but idk;; i got bored after;; and just to let you know KID CUDI SUCKS LIVE!!! but its okay haha.

We ended up leaving at like 1:20;; dropped off lauren and sean;; and then i came to melody's;; hanging out with dillon....

Don't be scared..

Yesterday... was one of those days that you just let anything happen, and go with the flow... ya know?

My day started off waking up around 2 ish? And just layed around, until i finally got ready::
i was already scheduled to pick alex up from his school at 6.. but i always get there a couple mins late haha.

I was hungry before so i got chinese food lmao. i ate by myself like a fatass... but usually i could finish the whole thing by myself; but this time i could hardly eat that much...

So, i picked alex up and took him home; i went to starbucks in monrovia and just sat there... cus one day i realized how pretty it is just to sit there; and think about lots of things;;; i started thinking about what i wanted to do;;; i hate it when people don't text back or if they text you back like a million years later its kinda stupid too me haha.

And so leroy imed me and said if he wanted to hangout and we got into an IM arguement about what i've been doing and how it doesnt fucken matter cus seriously it doesnt... so me and alex went to go smoke with him and jason and some fool...and they are selling e and they sold us two space man pills for 6 dollars hahah. Alex has never taken e before;; and he was downnn. So our plan was ;; to pick lauren up from her dads house in granada hills;; so we took those pills when we were on our way to pick her up..

We get to her house and she says "i want you to come meet my dad"... [[her dad recently got into a big boating accident; he's paralyzed in a wheelchair and stuff]]. So..i go in and say hi to her mom and i meet her dad.. i kinda wanted to cry;; but it was okay;;i kinda felt the e;; but no.
So we leave;;; and we drive through the hills in the valley and i started to trip out,, my eyes kinda started to wonder off;; i started thinking some weird shit.. like if my car would just stop running and we'd be stuck in the mountains or something haha. but it was okay;; cus even if i was rolling i could still drive really good.. i could see alex in the corner off my eye;; he kept looking at his phone every 5 seconds haha and he kept dancing all crazyy.

We finally got to laurens thank god;; wow i was going crazy cus i just didnt wanna drive anymore..
It felt so good to drive; my palms were so sweaty;; and when i get up and out of my car;; the fresh air felt so good;; it kinda gave me the chills;;

Before alex and i took them alex was scared... this is what i tell everyone when they are scared;; "don't be scared;; don't think about it;; you'll love it,, don't even trip" haha and its really true.. so the whole time in laurens house me and alex were trippin out and lauren was getting ready hah.
We were deciding on what to do;; but couldnt find anything except for that danceworks shit;; so we finally found the address and drove there but some guys said its not worth paying all that money aka i dont even know how much it was...

SO we ended up driving around in la;; being hotties;; aka you already know..
Lauren calls super sara and then we went to her friends party in glendale and saw her and some cool people and nicky massacre haha;; he's cool;; and that guy oliver he's cool and i love his accent. we just drank and got uber fucked up;;
We left at four and went to the mcdonalds in duarte and the fucking system wasnt working for some reason so they made us wait like 30 mins for our damn food..! And so alyssa [[the one i got in the car accident with]] came to hangout with us;; cus she lives in arizona now so she wanted to hangout! We finally got our egg mcmuffins;; and we said goodbye and we went home...



So today is saturday;; and i just woke up at like 3:30 hahah;; what's up with me waking up at 3:30? lmao
I ate a fatass torta;; aka i feel fat;; ha jk
Today me lauren and alex are going to davids party in rialto :)
i'm in a good mood ;; kinda. i need to start getting ready..see ya

first night

So lastnight...
Was my first night at the heist! It was really cool, i really liked it..
I went with lauren and marble;; and saw alot of hotties; and danced like it was 1969; lmao jk.



But i was having a bad day yesterday; long story; aka i don't think you want to know;;;

I'd tell you;; but i'd rather people not make rumors and shit cause i dont think i would be able to handle that...
wow, there's been lots of things happening in my life; sometimes i just don't think and i hate it so much.
I just let things happen; cause i can sometimes be really lonely; or sometimes be really depressed; aka i get alot of weird mood swings;
but i never really show it; well if im quiet that means im mad;sad;or depressed..

I got home at 3:30? And knocked out; i woke up today at 3:30 hah; 12 hours of sleep; which i needed.
I'm thinking about what i want to eat and what there is to do today; and i wanna see someone but i doubt that he wants to see me.

I can't believe alot of shit that has been happening; i hate liars and cheaters!
i'm over it; i'm gonna go eat....